"At some point I even cry every time he latched there was even blood coming out OUCH, thinking of it aargh it was horrible."
When Noah was born I thought that breastfeeding Noah would be an eazy breazy, because I had breastfed Kairos to. But I was wrong I think it was so much harder with Noah then with Kairos.
In the first 3 weeks my nipples where sore and hurted so bad, every time Noah had to drink I was not excited about it. At some point I even cry every time he latched there was even blood coming out, OUCH, thinking of it aargh it was horrible. And then my breast engorged. For the mommies who do not know what this means, it means your breast becomes so dammm hard and milk over flowing you need double breast pads believe me, I do not like this feeling but I do like the size of it BIG HARD BOOBIES. But thankfully my husband was such an amazing support, he gave me candy, when Noah would latch I would eat an candy and bite on the candy plus candies are yummy.
Most mommies would give up on breastfeeding by now because it hurts so bad, but I would say DONT GIVE UP. Breastmilk is the best what your baby can get in the first few months of his life.
Why did I want to continue breastfeeding?
First I was thinking how good it was for Noah and that this will profit him now and later on. and its an amazing way to bond with your lil one .Second it is for FREE!! babies are expensive foreal and thank God He gave us milk to easen our wallets. Third is cleaner then drinking out of the bottle last but not least you don't have to cope with making milk all the time and at night feedings you just give your boob and its done. Like I am co-sleeping with my baby, most parents will not agree on this but it works for me and my kids, I did this to with Kairos and me love it I could have a really good night rest co-sleeping with them.
After 2 months of breastfeeding my boobs start to soften, I got panic, I was like OMG my milk is finished NOOOOO! I got so worried, I try to pump my milk but nothing came out, I was so scared Noah would not get enough. But he seemed just fine, my Lil one didn't complain and when he latched, milk came out.
Every time when I gave him milk I prepared formula milk just in case he got angry because he didn't get enough. Thankfully I did not gave him the formula milk and threw it away after I was done breastfeeding Noah.
I did some research on the internet and I understand now that this is totally normal. When your boobs soften doesn't mean you don't have milk, it means you have enough milk for the lil one and the milk has been stored well in your breast.
The reason why with pumping nothing came out or a lil came out, it is because your nipples are already attached and understands the way your lil one latch.
Even though I read these on the internet, I still was kind of worried. So I did pumping aerobic I think that's what they call, so its pumping your breast after the lil one drank your milk and pump it for 15 min longer, drink alot of water and do this for two days.
After the second day my boobs started to engorged again, I was happy and not happy at the same time. Happy that I still have milk and not happy because it hurted again and my breast pads were over floating every time I gave my lil one milk.
So for all the breastfeeding moms please don't give up on this journey. Do it not only for your lil one, but also for yourself. I know that this breastfeeding journey for me is not over yet and there will be ups and downs. But you know what let's bring this journey on, such a good journey to build your character of not giving up, to push yourself, being determined commitment as result AN SUPER AWESOME STRONG WOMAN!!
The last part does not only count for breastfeeding moms but for all moms, you are amazing and whatever situation you are in at the moment raising your children. You can do it, we are build and made to be capable and able to do this amazing privileged work and that is raising kids.
*this beautiful picture is not mine, I found this picture on pinterest fyi