It all started Saturday morning 16th of January 2016, I felt contractions at 4.30 am in the morning it woke me up. I thought this must be labor contractions, I was so happy. We went to the hospital not knowing that I had to call first.
We arrived at the hospital, the doctor looked at me and said you can walk, that means that you don't really have labor contractions, but they checked anyways. We stayed at the hospital for 2 hours after that, the doctor sended us back home.
The whole day I felt pain in my lower tummy, but it was a pain that I could handle. After dinner it got worst, at 11 pm I felt like I might broke my water so we called the hospital and they said I could come over. The doctor checked me again and wasn't sure if my water broke but there was water coming out. He said that I haven't delated yet, but I did had contractions every 6/7 min.
This time they didn't sended me back home, because the doctor was aware that with my previous pregnancy I had a c-section and wanted to monitor me in the hospital.
It was hard for me to stay up everytime when I walked, I felt the contractions coming every 3min when walking but when I lay down it would come every 5min.
Sunday morning the doctor checked and he said I was 1 cm delated, he informed me that they could break my water to speed things up but I had to be 3cm delated. If I wasn't delated by then they had to do a csection that Sunday evening.
I really didn't want to do a c-section again and want to experience vaginal birth, my mother did it , my grandma did it so I felt that I had to do it to. I cried and said I will not give up yet. So we informed all the people that we love about our condition and asked for their prayers that before dinner time I had to be 3cm delated so they can break my water.
When time passed by, my contractions became worst, I was waiting for the doctors but they didn't come. I waited till dinner but then they didn't came to give me more heads up. I called them and asked what we are going to do now, because they said they would check on me and see if we are going to do a c-section or not that Sunday.
They decided to give us more time till monday morning, because they knew how much I wanted a vaginal birth.
That night Papi victor (our pastor) came with Jc, Ka hanna and opa to visit us. It was really comforting that they came, he said if your face is not ugly yet because of the pain your not there yet.That made me a bit happy kind of not knowing that the next day he would told the truth.
Sunday night my pain got worst, I couldn't sleep. The nurse gave me morphine she said "you will not feel the pain and your able to sleep till morning". So I said to my husband that he could go home because I would see him in the morning. The morphine only worked for 1 and a half hour I woke up again because of the pain. I showered for 1 hour and walked the pain out the whole morning. It felt like hell that night, alone in the hospital I almost gave in and said maybe the csection would be better now. So I will be done and won't feel these pain that comes every 2min.
Monday morning the doctor came to check me at 9 am, and HALELUYA I was 3cm delated they broke my water in another 30min. And the contractions came more regularly OMG the pain. They checked me again, 1 hour after and I was still 3cm so they induced me. OW LORD OW LORD the pain it felt like menstruation pain but 10000 times worst.
The nurse said to me don't scream the pain out but breath in and out and say LET IT GO when breathing out. So I did that but it didn't really comfort me, I changed it to I ACCEPT THE PAIN and LET IT GO. The nurse kind of looked confused at me when I said it, they probably think why would you accept it. For me accepting the pain makes it less painful because accepting it, that's a part of love. Love always endure and gives strength even when your weak.
Around 12pm the pain got to much and I was delated 4/5cm by then, but I couldn't handle it anymore so I asked the doctor for an epidural. Not to long after I ordered an epidural papi Victor came and prayed for us right away. He prayed asking God to give us strength and that I could make it without medicines and epidural. And I was like ow no why did you pray for that I just ordered an epidural. So the epidural came, before that they stopped inducing me. The doctor checked again and I was 6cm delated. I said to the doctor you know what I don't want to be induced and I don't want the epidural, I will try to do it on my own.
The doctor asked me twice if I was sure and I was so sure about it, because I had a great team who encourage me and massaged me.
The pain got worst but I got help Papi Victor massaging my feet, oma massaging and praying at belly, Subhan who was rubbing my back all of that really helped.
At 3pm the doctor came again and she checked me I was 7cm delated, that point I was disappointed because I was hoping for 8/9cm delated.
I felt angry at myself so I decided to lay on my side in the hope that I get more delated. At 3.45pm I felt this contraction like I want to take a poo but the nurse said that I can not give in, I had to puff the poo pain out. That was so annoying the nurse called the doctor again she checked me and Thank God i was by then 9cm delated WOOHOO I was soo happy and proud at myself.
The doctor went away, the nurse was already getting ready for the delivery. While she was getting ready something happen to me, I had this contraction and I just screamed so hard wanting to push the baby out of me. The nurse called the doctor and she checked me again and yes I was 10cm delated which means I could push anytime soon, After she checked me there came another contractions and I really felt like I had to push something out, felt like I wanted to take a major shit. The doctor said oke are you ready, I was like helll yeahh I was so excited and spiritful, This contraction was so different then the contractions I had for the past 3 days, this was a poo feeling and in between the contractions I could rest. When before I had contractions every 1/2 min non stop without pauses.
I had 5 contractions per contractions I had to push 2 times. Within `10 pushes baby Noa came. My mom said when his head is almost coming out you will feel a fire burning feeling in your vagina, but I didn't felt that guess its because I drank raspberry leave tea for the past 2 months, it said it will make your vagina flexible. Noa head came out it slided out of my vagina I got shocked and said " WHAT THE *** IS THAT" afcourse it's his head duhh but it was a my first reaction so stupid thinking about it makes me really feel dumb., then the rest of his body came out it just slides out of my vagina within 2sec. I was so happy the pain was gone and baby Noa in my arms right away. It took him 11min to come out and it took 60 hours of pain. But it was all worth it, a wish come true to finally have experienced a vaginal birth. A life experience of not giving up and giving in. Being firm and hold Gods promise and his words. And the people he sended to support me for the past 3 days.
The doctors that fought for me, to not to do a cesarean and believed in my body that I could do this. So thankful to the hospital Bronovo for the great hospitality.