Hey you guys its the time for some serious business right now =P, do you guys remember my blog " Define Love" if not you can read it by clicking here--> Define Love<--- anyways for those who already read it, now I got a new story almost the same as Define Love but now the male version of it. Two months ago a good friend of mine Jo who owns one of the biggest artists management in Indonesia suddenly called me and Subhan to work together for an huge project something like a musical/show, so he introduced us to this guy right ( no need to mention his name not that important) but it's also weird to call him " this guy" hmmmm lets call him "Tguy" ( just to make him sound cooler hahah ) Jo also introduced us to Rachmania she's one of the most famoust writer who wrote best seller books and made her own movie called " Eifel I am in love". I remember it was on a sunday at fx where me and Subhan was on a memoriel event of David Tities who passed away that month, that we had our very first meeting with Tguy, Rachmania, Jo and some other people. We were talking about this huge showcase/musical that we want to make with dance, famous Indonesian artist, and huge companies that would sponsor us. Now Tguy his family owns one of the biggest companies in Indonesia, ( thats what he claims ) and I am telling that company that he claims its his and his families its huge. He promised us that he could get the sponsor for us because the directors are his family and it was very easy for us to get everything what we wanted no problemo for Tguy.
Whitin less then a week we called our dream team "Prema Persada" and started to do auditions for the show/musical that we wanted to make, we invited so many people, artists, dancers and musicans to do audition. Everything went so well in the beginning, and we all thought " yess were doing something big " so happy were we and excited. We had meetings with Tguy from 7 pm till 10 am in the morning , meetings at his place, Jo place and from restaurants to restaurants everyday one and a half month long. While were having these meetings and everything, this Tguy got a bit suspicous because he talked bad about things to us, he would say something bad about Jo to us but to Jo he would talk bad about us "backstabbing". But we didnt knew about that in the beginning, he acted so nice to us and was so giving but we could see that deep inside he was alone, didnt know what true Love is, we could see that no doubt because our heart never lies and always tell the truth.
At some point Tguy showed us a side that we havent seen before, we knew he was a tuff guy always want to be the important guy in our team but one day he suddenly attacked Subhan with this loud voice and such an anger in him that we didnt saw it comming at all. From then on Subhan felt weird and his heart didnt felt peace, he smelt that there was something fishy. Also Tguy told me that he didnt trust Subhan from the very beginning, but in the very beginning when Tguy still acted normal he said that we were like his family and that he trusted Subhan with no doubt, I got confused, sad, mad, dissapointed and everything that didnt felt oke at that point. He said that I have to becareful because guys are assholes and not faithfull, I know guys can be like that but girls aswell, not all people are like that. When I sat there and listened while he was talking like that to me I had a flash back and God rememberd me about Unconditional Love he reminded me of my situation in my story "Define Love". If Subhan want to hurt me or being an asshole, thats his responsiblity with God not with me as long as I love Subhan and Trust him in any way that shows my LOVE for God not for Subhan that kept me strong and thank God a guy like Tguy didnt make my mind think bad about my Subhan.
I also didnt felt peace anymore since the Subhan attack happend I said to God deep inside, I dont want to do this anymore I dont feel the fire that I have with my other projects, me and Subhan prayed we said " Father we dont know this Tguy please show him who he is and save us from this because our hearts dont feel peace". Not within a month God showed us who he really is, we found that he is a liar, nobody knows him at this company that he claims to be his and oow yeah forget to tell he claims also that he is one of the owners of Java Festival Productions that make events like Soulnation, Java Rocking Land and many more. And he promised to Subhan that Peazmakerz could play at Soulnation, that we would have our own stage and that he would get the Sponsorship for us from that huge company that he "Owns"( sorrry almost forget to tell you guys that part). We know that he's a liar because our faithfull friend mba Effie acted like a ditective and sended emails to this huge company and to the owner of Java Festival Production and emailed if they knew Tguy and attached the email with the letters that Tguy sended to us and a picture of him.
Now comes the OMG shocking happy wtheck part, me and Subhan acompany Gege while he was teaching dance to a few girls locking, then this friend of Subhan, Ferdinand asked Subhan if they could meet eachother at Senayan at the place where they were preparing Soulnation. We arrived there and Subhan started to talk with Ferdinand suddenly Subhan was talking to this woman and they looked kinda serious while talking, but then I was like oow oke what ever Subhan do his promotion thingy again about Peazmakerz, talk about our team because that's what he do everytime he meet new people. Then... Tguy apeared at senayan aswell he approached me and said " Hey Erma what are you doing here" I afcourse got shocked, Tguy and me we talked and talked , he then got a bit thirsty probally of all that talking and wanted to drink coffee so he searched for somebody he could make him coffee. When he got back he was with one of the head security of Soulnation and talked suddenly, the same woman who talked with Subhan approached Tguy and asked him these question " who are you?" " We know from other people you claim that your one of the owner of Soulnation and make fals promises to other people?" and you know what, this woman who talked with Subhan she's the REAL one of the owners of Soulnation. And more people got around Tguy, some of them got so mad pointed at him and said " Why are you killing dreams and make fals promises with our name you cant do that, thats not fair and nice." I dont know what exactly they said because I sat 10 steps away from them but the point was that the Soulnation people didnt know Tguy and don't want him to be at that place anymore at NO event of Java Festival Production and then 3 men of security escorted him away.
But I thank God what he did to us tru Tguy, he showed us that he is with us at all times and nomather how bad this Tguy is inside he's very lonely and I also thank him because I learned alot from him business wise, I made new friends see life also in a different way and made me realize how I can depend on God more then everything by following my heart, over and over again God is suprising me, making me falling in Love with him. Because the past few weeks I felt that I lost myself, not really lost but I felt my fire wasnt the way it should be like ON FIRE hehehe. And to think of it just now theres this passage from the bible that I love
" Those whose steps are guided by the Lord; those way God approves, May stumble, but they will NEVER fall, for the Lord holds their hand." ( Psalm 37, 23:24)
Thats what God did to me today and he will do it to you for you who believe in our father, I realy love those hard prossess that God gives to me, to make me a better person a better Erma a Erma who can control her mind with her heart. My friend Jo told me " If you can control yourself, you can control the world." " If you Love yourself, the world will Love you to." So my message to you guys is don't chase things what you can see like, money, people, fortune materials etc but more follow your heart, stay postive at all times and the the money, people, fortune, materials etc will chase after you. Thank you for taking your time to read my story bless you, your family and friends always.