Hey you guys its the time for some serious business right now =P, do you guys remember my blog " Define Love" if not you can read it by clicking here--> Define Love<--- anyways for those who already read it, now I got a new story almost the same as Define Love but now the male version of it. Two months ago a good friend of mine Jo who owns one of the biggest artists management in Indonesia suddenly called me and Subhan to work together for an huge project something like a musical/show, so he introduced us to this guy right ( no need to mention his name not that important) but it's also weird to call him " this guy" hmmmm lets call him "Tguy" ( just to make him sound cooler hahah ) Jo also introduced us to Rachmania she's one of the most famoust writer who wrote best seller books and made her own movie called " Eifel I am in love". I remember it was on a sunday at fx where me and Subhan was on a memoriel event of David Tities who passed away that month, that we had our very first meeting with Tguy, Rachmania, Jo and some other people. We were talking about this huge showcase/musical that we want to make with dance, famous Indonesian artist, and huge companies that would sponsor us. Now Tguy his family owns one of the biggest companies in Indonesia, ( thats what he claims ) and I am telling that company that he claims its his and his families its huge. He promised us that he could get the sponsor for us because the directors are his family and it was very easy for us to get everything what we wanted no problemo for Tguy.
Whitin less then a week we called our dream team "Prema Persada" and started to do auditions for the show/musical that we wanted to make, we invited so many people, artists, dancers and musicans to do audition. Everything went so well in the beginning, and we all thought " yess were doing something big " so happy were we and excited. We had meetings with Tguy from 7 pm till 10 am in the morning , meetings at his place, Jo place and from restaurants to restaurants everyday one and a half month long. While were having these meetings and everything, this Tguy got a bit suspicous because he talked bad about things to us, he would say something bad about Jo to us but to Jo he would talk bad about us "backstabbing". But we didnt knew about that in the beginning, he acted so nice to us and was so giving but we could see that deep inside he was alone, didnt know what true Love is, we could see that no doubt because our heart never lies and always tell the truth.
At some point Tguy showed us a side that we havent seen before, we knew he was a tuff guy always want to be the important guy in our team but one day he suddenly attacked Subhan with this loud voice and such an anger in him that we didnt saw it comming at all. From then on Subhan felt weird and his heart didnt felt peace, he smelt that there was something fishy. Also Tguy told me that he didnt trust Subhan from the very beginning, but in the very beginning when Tguy still acted normal he said that we were like his family and that he trusted Subhan with no doubt, I got confused, sad, mad, dissapointed and everything that didnt felt oke at that point. He said that I have to becareful because guys are assholes and not faithfull, I know guys can be like that but girls aswell, not all people are like that. When I sat there and listened while he was talking like that to me I had a flash back and God rememberd me about Unconditional Love he reminded me of my situation in my story "Define Love". If Subhan want to hurt me or being an asshole, thats his responsiblity with God not with me as long as I love Subhan and Trust him in any way that shows my LOVE for God not for Subhan that kept me strong and thank God a guy like Tguy didnt make my mind think bad about my Subhan.
I also didnt felt peace anymore since the Subhan attack happend I said to God deep inside, I dont want to do this anymore I dont feel the fire that I have with my other projects, me and Subhan prayed we said " Father we dont know this Tguy please show him who he is and save us from this because our hearts dont feel peace". Not within a month God showed us who he really is, we found that he is a liar, nobody knows him at this company that he claims to be his and oow yeah forget to tell he claims also that he is one of the owners of Java Festival Productions that make events like Soulnation, Java Rocking Land and many more. And he promised to Subhan that Peazmakerz could play at Soulnation, that we would have our own stage and that he would get the Sponsorship for us from that huge company that he "Owns"( sorrry almost forget to tell you guys that part). We know that he's a liar because our faithfull friend mba Effie acted like a ditective and sended emails to this huge company and to the owner of Java Festival Production and emailed if they knew Tguy and attached the email with the letters that Tguy sended to us and a picture of him.
Now comes the OMG shocking happy wtheck part, me and Subhan acompany Gege while he was teaching dance to a few girls locking, then this friend of Subhan, Ferdinand asked Subhan if they could meet eachother at Senayan at the place where they were preparing Soulnation. We arrived there and Subhan started to talk with Ferdinand suddenly Subhan was talking to this woman and they looked kinda serious while talking, but then I was like oow oke what ever Subhan do his promotion thingy again about Peazmakerz, talk about our team because that's what he do everytime he meet new people. Then... Tguy apeared at senayan aswell he approached me and said " Hey Erma what are you doing here" I afcourse got shocked, Tguy and me we talked and talked , he then got a bit thirsty probally of all that talking and wanted to drink coffee so he searched for somebody he could make him coffee. When he got back he was with one of the head security of Soulnation and talked suddenly, the same woman who talked with Subhan approached Tguy and asked him these question " who are you?" " We know from other people you claim that your one of the owner of Soulnation and make fals promises to other people?" and you know what, this woman who talked with Subhan she's the REAL one of the owners of Soulnation. And more people got around Tguy, some of them got so mad pointed at him and said " Why are you killing dreams and make fals promises with our name you cant do that, thats not fair and nice." I dont know what exactly they said because I sat 10 steps away from them but the point was that the Soulnation people didnt know Tguy and don't want him to be at that place anymore at NO event of Java Festival Production and then 3 men of security escorted him away.
But I thank God what he did to us tru Tguy, he showed us that he is with us at all times and nomather how bad this Tguy is inside he's very lonely and I also thank him because I learned alot from him business wise, I made new friends see life also in a different way and made me realize how I can depend on God more then everything by following my heart, over and over again God is suprising me, making me falling in Love with him. Because the past few weeks I felt that I lost myself, not really lost but I felt my fire wasnt the way it should be like ON FIRE hehehe. And to think of it just now theres this passage from the bible that I love
" Those whose steps are guided by the Lord; those way God approves, May stumble, but they will NEVER fall, for the Lord holds their hand." ( Psalm 37, 23:24)
Thats what God did to me today and he will do it to you for you who believe in our father, I realy love those hard prossess that God gives to me, to make me a better person a better Erma a Erma who can control her mind with her heart. My friend Jo told me " If you can control yourself, you can control the world." " If you Love yourself, the world will Love you to." So my message to you guys is don't chase things what you can see like, money, people, fortune materials etc but more follow your heart, stay postive at all times and the the money, people, fortune, materials etc will chase after you. Thank you for taking your time to read my story bless you, your family and friends always.
Don't convert people to religion, but lead them to righteousness and let them by their self choose a religion who suits them the best.
I am so fed up sometimes with my fellow Christian and hearing them bragging about that they or somebody converted my friends from another faith to Christianity. Or talk how we have to convert people to God and Gods path and approaching people so aggressively.It is kind of annoying like those people from a call center they would call you around diner time to force you to buy a product that you might not even want, and I mean like come on. And yes I am somebody who loves my heavenly Father Jesus Christ but that doesn't mean we have to be aggressive with our culture, please NO!
In the bible Jesus lead people towards righteousness and God, not in a aggressive way He was very cool and down to earth. Jesus in the bible he gave parables to people, that means that He let people think and decide by their own right? can I get an AMEN!!
Jesus lead and so we have to do that to , what is the meaning of lead verb, led, lead·ing,noun, adjective
1. To show the way to by going in advance ( source : http://www.thefreedictionary.com/lead ).
We have to show people in advanve the way and lead them by changing ourselves into a righteousness person a better person first. In the bible Jesus did not try to convert the pharisees nor the Jews into being Jesuits or what ever. NO He didn't, He led them. They remained in their own faith and they try to live righteous, I think that matters the most in life. Religion was not build to make a culture or put us in a category, it is build for us to live righteous, living a good life without all the bullshit and religion lead us towards God. But now a days it seems like religion becomes like America best dance crew, which crew is better then another and try to convince people to like them to order to win the competition. RELIGION, FAITH IT IS NOT A COMPETITION it is love, it is an experience that is beyond anything that we can not imagine. With Faith things that for us seems to be impossible becomes possible, it is truly beautiful and religion is helping us to get there. Where is there? there is righteous, everybody wants to live righteous, everybody wants to have a perfect life. Think about it, it can never hurt you to be a better person right?
Those who are wise will shine as bright as the sky, and those who lead many to righteousness will shine like the stars forever. ( Daniel 12:3)
Recently it has been so hectic for me, taking care of my family, Peazmakerz, our new foundation and a clothing line coming up.
I have been so busy with myself and trying to get stable income for the family that I forgot my number one priorty and it just takes 30min minimal of my time. And that's just to have a chat with God.
I feel pretty bad, because everytime when I remind myself to have a moment with God, and your heart reminds you. I would be yeah later and it has been always later. I could look at my phone browse trough internet for hours and not just having a moment with God. Knowing that God is always there and He would always forigive me if I did wrong, I take Him for granted everyday.
I started to not communicate and that leaded to not having a healthy relationship with God, every relationship needs good communication or other wise we will never meet eachother and connect.
It is one of the basic fundementals in a relationship communication.
Not just the communication and being able to pray, but everytime I would go to the church it feel so numb, worshipping, singing and praising God feels not real anymore.
I even start to think not want to go to church and prefer to stay at home praying and be alone with God at home.
I said to God " I don't feel you in church anymore, I feel your present when we do missions your there, I feel such a mess right now."
Sometimes as a believer at some point you become a lil bit numb, like you feel so empty, no living energy of life is coming out of your heart. Like life is so pointless at the moment. Yet you don't want to give up because you have Jesus. You don't want to give up and still fight against all the temptations that goes around you.
Today was that day, that I can't give up on my relationship, that had been so beautiful before and now and will forever.
I started this morning worshiping God in Erma way, I put some Lecrae, Andy Mineo, Muli music on, didn't realy worked out. Tried Broken vessels from Hillsong didn't worked out either.
Then I just started to talk and poor my heart and it was BEAUTIFULL. After pooring my heart out, shedding alot of tears. God said to me "Thank you for not giving up, read romans 5:2".
I opened my bible something that I rarely do, this came out
Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.
For me the part that got " When we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develope endurance. And endurance develops strenght of character and character strengthens our condifent hope of salvation."
You can't have hope without strenght and character and you can't have strengt and character if you don't have the character of not giving up trough hard times.'
You are truely beautiful God, I love you!!